Another Announcement...no not mine!

About three months ago, and since then I have felt as if everyone....and I mean EVERYONE was pregnant. Everyone I knew either just had a child, was about to have a child or announced they were pregnant. Well I was proven wrong. Now, everyone is pregnant, that is everyone but me.

Ok so in reality I understand that not everyone besides me is pregnant, for example, if you are reading this it could likely be that you are not pregnant or once found yourself residing in the situation I myself am in. Another example, my husband....I mean he is not pregnant so what am I complaining about right....although it seems that if it was his job things could be looking better right now, no in reality it is neither my "fault" nor his, because we together at this time are infertile. (I stole this phrase from one of my favorite blogs and it is perfect, we are together in this not one of us is at what we may call "fault") Maybe that is an aspect of fertility I should look into. Well I just wanted to vent, yesterday someone found out they were having a boy....I find this effects me more than when I hear that someone is having a girl. I have yet to dream about having a baby girl but I have dreamed about that baby boy on many occasions, so when I hear this I feel that yet another persons "dreams" are coming true. Don't get me wrong I would take a girl ANY DAY OF THE WEEK. I am not picky. I would take, twins, triplets, quadruplets you name it.

I have decided that throughout my postings I will list lessons I have learned, why??? Because we are given trials that we may be lifted up, educated and most importantly so that we can grow. They are in no particular order. Here is
Lesson # 1
From the hymn 'Lord I would follow thee', "In the quiet heart is hidden sorrow that the eye can't see." As I sit in church mettings or various places where I am given time to contemplate I often focus on my own feelings, the people around me don't necessarily know what I am going through. They don't know that my heart is hurting, that each time I see a new baby, hear an announcement or even hear the word pregnant I feel the sting. It has made me think,"how many more people are hurting? What pains are those around me feeling? Maybe someone is going through what I am going through? Maybe someone is feeling more pain than I am? Maybe they are sad, lonely, depressed?" It reminds me of a quote I heard once, "treat everyone you meet as though their heart was breaking" If I do this, I won't offend others, I won't hurt them or make their pain worse. I will give a little light to a darkened heart. Why? Because I have been there, I am there, and although I may not know what their exact pain is, I know what mine is. Thats lesson #1.